I gave up cursing for lent and am failing miserably. Within the very hour of deciding that’s what I was going to do, I said the word BS.

The second day I wrote an extremely foul-mouthed-laden text, and didn’t even realize I did it until later in the day when I screwed up and said the F word out loud. I thought it was the first time I messed up that day, but then remembered that text 😬

Later when I was talking to PJ I had to stop myself several times from cursing and after slapping my hands over my mouth every time I almost did it, he finally said, “This is never going to work – you should just give up dessert.” To that I almost said, “F THAT!” because I live for dessert, but I just scoffed at him instead.

I usually curse on purpose. I know it’s not exhibiting good manners, but sometimes there are no better words to express exactly how I feel than a good old, “This is f-ing bs.” I guess I could say, “This is total nonsense!” But it doesn’t quite hit the same way.

Cursing is my favorite because it’s a great form of expressionism and I also love how silly it is that people get so worked up over words.

Why was the word “F***” decided to be the ultimate pearl-clutcher (some would argue that the C U Next Tuesday word beats it) but the word “duck” is ok? One letter difference. Or “suck” which is not only used in everyday language, but it’s ok to say something ‘sucks’ if you hate it?

It’s really dumb when you think about it.

I’ve explained to my kids that cursing isn’t a big deal to me, but it is to others and that’s why you don’t get on your Zoom and say, “Good morning everyone! How the h-e-double hockey sticks are ya?!” They get it.

My friend Rosie said she was giving up toxic people for Lent. I felt like I was already pretty good at that and it wouldn’t really be like repenting, so I chose the cursing instead.

But after cursing so much yesterday because I couldn’t contain my disgust over selfish, know-it-all, multi-level-marketing, QAnon conspiracy theorists who pretend that they’re higher and mightier than everyone but are only being falsely “nice” so they don’t lose customers in their snake oil salesman, magic beans ‘cure all’ schemes – I decided that removing toxic people from my life probably was the better choice. Especially since they probably kept me in their lives for networking purposes anyway.

It feels FUCKING great.