I have not been well lately, my friends. I think the world finally broke me.

For as long as I’ve been writing this blog, I’ve expressed how I feel about injustice in the world. Some may say I’m a walking, talking, “woke” checklist (they wouldn’t mean it as a compliment.)

You probably think it’s the Roe v. Wade decision that put me over the edge, it’s not. It was the Highland massacre on July 4th.

When I first heard, I decided to ignore it so I could enjoy my day. I didn’t want to know every minute detail of how innocent people were watching the parade and, ‘the next thing we knew, gun shots rang out, and then…’

After the Boston Marathon bombing, it took me a solid few weeks to not constantly picture little Martin Richard being murdered as he stood hanging over a barricade, waving and cheering on the runners. Even now, his sweet little face pops up in my mind when that tragedy is mentioned.

I knew I was bound to hear about another 8-year-old, standing in the Highland parade crowd, happy and laughing one minute, shot dead the next.

So I buried my head in the sand that day, and decided I like it better there.

Because the next time I went on dumbass Facebook, both “sides” were angry and fighting over abortion, gas prices (and whose fault it is), the January 6th hearings, racism, sexism, climate change, religion, parenting, fat-shaming, skinny-shaming, you name it.

The last thing I wanted to see was the innocent victim’s faces, and then have some ass-backwards piece of trash tell me how guns aren’t a problem.

There was a time when you couldn’t tear me away from the drama; just last week, I was jumping in with my opinion too. But after turning my back on it for just one day, it opened my eyes to how much I don’t need or want it in my life.

There are probably some people that think this is the stupidest route to take because it’s important to be “in the know.”

I don’t care.

The most important thing for me right now is voting in November because of the shit-show currently presenting itself in the Supreme Court. Other than that, I’m out. It’s all just fighting and there’s never any solution, never any change, so why bother even reading about it?

I set up my phone so I only get important notifications, and I haven’t looked at my Facebook or Twitter feeds for 3 days. I didn’t watch the idiot news last night. I don’t need to, I can tell you the story lineup without even seeing it:

– Major catastrophe regarding something that keeps the left & right fighting

– natural disaster (if there’s not a tornado, flood, or earthquake somewhere in the world, they rely on the devastating wildfires)

– a story about how it’s hot and you should drink water

– a shooting or some other tragedy

– and finally the “feel good” story to send you on your way and come back for more tomorrow

I’m tired of being upset all the time. I took the Facebook app off my phone. I think I’ll check it once a week from my desktop. And forget about Twitter, that platform was always too messy for me. Sayonara to that shit. Now whenever I go for my phone – instead of spiraling down into a pit of despair – I play Words With Friends or my beloved 1010.

In my favorite book, The Great Gatsby, Daisy Buchanan says of her daughter:

I hope she’ll be a fool, that’s the best thing a girl can be in this world, a beautiful little fool.

I don’t know about the beautiful part, I’m looking a little rough these days, but I can most definitely play the fool. Ignorance is bliss.